Kameleonated

They're coming here to pick me up, Doctor's coats and rubber gloves. They told me not to pack my stuff Never mentioned what it was, Why I have to leave? I rode along in a black sedan, This is where my loss began, Confused for the entire span. Again i tried to ask the man, what was going on? My new home a gated building, Derelict halls and silent screaming. Twiddle thumbs, stare at the ceiling. This is where I should be healing, Where ever this is? Many years I'll spend in here. Breaking down my many fears, My many creatures disappear, Until they say what I want to hear, "You're not sick now"

I'll drink myself to sleep tonight, Just like I've done a thousand times, 'Cause I let you get on that flight and leave. I'll hang my head at work today, the loss, the pain, all on display, Because I let you get away from me. I turned myself a bloody mess, and tucked the tears up in my chest, I've been swimming in this debt of sleep. I'll wake up each day in a hell, walking through life like a shell, Much unlike you, doing so well without me..

The floor gives a new view of the stars, And makes for easy clean up of your heart. Thank you for leaving after that beating, I couldn't handle it from the start. I had warned you that I wouldn't try I had discussed before you rolled the dice, You took the chance, It ended the same. Came up snake eyes, like I advised. As Hard as you tried, you tried your worst Pissed at yourself for thinking you'd come first, Bet against the odds, Turned up a loss, Then I watched as your heart and body burst. The floor gives a new view of the stars, And makes for easy clean up of your heart. Thank you for leaving after that beating, I couldn't

I feel the heat on the back of my neck, The sun through the trees burns with each step. It takes everything that it can out of me, The rays of flames cut through the leaves. The breeze, like a blade cuts away at my skin, Try as I might, I cant avoid the wind. This forest of horrors has me hoping for home. Now I know I shouldn't have come here alone. I'll never leave and stay stuck in the leaves. In the endless, hopeless maze of these trees. The calls, the tweets, the chirps of the birds, With my thoughts are the only things I've heard. All of them leave a stain on my ears, like the trails on my cheek from all of your tears. Choo

According to you, This weight in my hand, Has fifty feet to fly, It's not according to plan. Agreeing with you, May take more than a week, Even If I tried, It Doesn't agree with me. Desired just to you, Bricks crashing through the glass, Is something only I Desired purely last.

I am waiting for the time, When someone shuts their eyes. When their world stops, And they leave life behind. I know the time will come When I will lose someone, I won't be prepared Whenever it is done. As long as they still stand, I will force my hand, Make them enjoy As much life as I can

I see you soaking, Standing in the rain. Freezing to death for my attention. Well, I get the message. I could soak up the icy rain with you.     I see you burning, Moving like the fire, That heat isn't from the flames. I would play your games, and burn alive with you.     You draw me in, To be with you, Soaking in the rain, Burning in the flame.

Stare your demons down, They stare right back. Blame everyone else, The truth is that, As hard as you try You'll face the fact That only a mirror Is what you stare at.

Do you get so lost, Your compass thrown about, With something so weak as a smile? Your face goes flush, Breathing turns up short, Our Eyes met for only a little while. Getting you worked up Has become my new game, AS long as you let me win. It's so easy to see You can't hide from me The thoughts that dwell within. I'll take what I can get, Every clue and glimmering hint, Take them and milk them for miles Because you get so lost, Compass spun about. For one of my simple smiles.

There's nowhere I go, without the world resting on my back. There's no one that knows, how much this costs, how much this tasks. I can't be tied down, never be locked up, held to the ground. I won't be restrained, Bound and gagged, tied and chained. I pull and pry At the ties that bind have given no give. I'm starting to feel, more beginning to believe that I won't live. But you have shocked me, Those simple words Have easily set me free.